So ture and Painful...

I hate being like this.. It makes me feel so trapped. I really want to take part in so many things at school and the things I want to do are either really easy and simple or sooo much fun but for some reason my mind just wont let me and I freeze up and just can do anything. There are so many thing I want to do and try, games I want to play, questions i want to answer but I just can't..or I just don't.. Even if I know the answer I'm soo scared of it actually being wrong or making mistakes in really dumb situations.. I get so much support from tons of people and it makes me so happy but it just never works. I always feel like I've failed them. I know being wrong or messing up isn't bad, it can actually be funny and fun. but for some reason.....I just can't...or just don't.... random shit....damn it...